It was confusing about what I want to be at my 19 because I was sooo damn lost mentally.
The confusion went on and on until recently, when now I am 36, start to feel I am getting out of this confusion. If I could go back to 19 , probably I will tell myself to release myself from my hard shell. Be honest in front of other, try best to say my heart out, be sincere to others. And meditate to know myself.
And that's my advice too